Wednesday, 02 September 2009
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The wedding countdown...
It's done. The documents are signed. The vows said. The only thing left is...the wedding banquet.
I really should be more excited. But trying to make everyone happy is an impossible task.
Saturday, 22 August 2009
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Worth a read...
If you're a women, this article is worth reading from nytimes.com. It makes you really think about your own position in society.
http://www.nytimes.com/2009/08/23/magazine/23Women-t.html?em
I have been cooped up studying all day as the weather outside wasn't cooperating. Sprinkles came through the windows forcing me to enclosed myself inside. I studied...really studied since I graduated. Without any inducement but a flashing insight into my own lack of experience and knowledge with certain disease conditions and treatments.
Passed my ACLS class. Now I can witness a code blue and may actually be of some help. Kinda troubling to think about, at the same time satisfying.
Tuesday, 18 August 2009
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Still searching...
A couple of days ago I talked about almost reaching a balance. Tonight, I feel the exact opposite. I'm stressed! About my upcoming class -- I know nothing, but I am supposed to pass a critical test in 2 days time.
Help!
Sunday, 16 August 2009
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In search of the perfect balance
Worked all night. Now I'm home...
There are nights when I love, love, love my job. And there are nights when I don't. Tonight was more about love. That makes me feel truly happy to do what I do.
I love the spirit of camaraderie among my colleagues. I love that we love to laugh. I like the feeling that I'm among friends as well as co-workers. Of course, there are individuals that I like less than others. But fortunately, those individuals are few and because of our rotating shifts, I don't get to see them all the time and they are easily forgotten.
These days I am full of gratitude for all that I have. A loving SO, a wonderful family, a comfortable group of friends, and work that both challenges and rewards me. I'm busier than I can remember being, but I also feel balanced, like there is time to relax and catch my breath if necessary.
It's wonderful to be able to enjoy and appreciate life. I hope to have these moments more often.
Enjoy your Sunday.
Thursday, 13 August 2009
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I tried napping, but...
...was too excited to really sleep the day away. For some reason, the thoughts of plants and greenery has me incredibly excited.
At the Farmer's market, Jeff and I selected 3 variety of herbs to start our patio garden. Because we don't know anything about herbs and it is too late to really start an herb garden this year, we instead invested in herb plants that were being sold in our Farmer's market. For our three tiny plants, we ended up paying $5. Hopefully, this will be a lasting herb garden.
Tuesday, 11 August 2009
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The New Neighbors
Jeff and I headed out as we typically do for a bit to eat and ran into our new neighbor today. We were stopped in the parking lot because Jeff was in the act of playing with two neighborhood cats, Jazzy and Charlie, when she came up to me and introduced herself. She seemed rather nice and around our age. Perhaps this is the beginning of the "neighborliness" that I always hear about, but have never experienced to a true degree yet living in the city.
But I guess the point of writing this entry is that the neighbor I am speaking of moved into our old unit. When Jeff and I went looking for a condo to purchase, we decided fairly early on that we liked the neighborhood and wanted to buy in the area. However, after placing multiple offers on a variety of properties in the community, it was just an amazing coincidence that the one we ended up buying was the unit in the next building, literally straight across from the place we were renting. So for a couple of weeks after we moved, we would be walking up to the front door of our old unit before we even realized our mistake.
But now, since our new neighbors moved in last week, it feels as if I've been transported to a different dimension or having an out of body experience. I can see straight across to their dining room (the blinds are always never closed -- like what Jeff & I use to do), almost as if I am watching a re-run of our old selves, with just enough changes to make everything feel slightly jarring.
Of course, before you think me nosy, I would like to add one important point about condo dwelling: If we can see into their dining room, they can also see into our home! Only, they are privy to a lot more of our home than we are of theirs! Due to the condo layouts, we only have a view though a rather smallish window into their dining room and part of their living room. However, from said window, they can see into our bedroom, our master bath, our living room, patio, and kitchen sink! I'm beginning to feel as if we're on displayed 24/7 -- I'm rather paranoid about what I am doing in each of these rooms. And the rather sad thing is that that's pretty much all the rooms we have in our tiny condo. There really isn't a place where I can hide out. Of course, Jeff and I have curtains and blinds, but the sad thing is that we like to keep our windows as unobscured as possible because it just makes the condo feel bigger and for better lighting. There have already been a couple of instances where I have started to take off items of clothing before realizing that a curtain wasn't drawn.
It remains to be seen how much of my life becomes unintentionally exposed to my neighbors.
Friday, 07 August 2009
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Yes, after waiting so long with bated breath...
Behold, an update!
At least an attempt at an update. After so much time has passed who knows if I can make myself make sense anymore.
Today started off rather auspiciously. The sun was glaring through our window at approx 6:45 this morning. And not being one to laze around in bed while the sun is obviously shining , I betook myself to the window and drew the curtain shut. But that only afforded me a 15 minute respite this time. My body would not allow sleep to return, so I energetically hopped out of bed -- at least as energetic as I could be after the last 2 days spent in near continuous sleep trying to get over my cold.
Not only did I have a desire to hop today, but my mind was also jumping eagerly ahead in anticipation of completing the next item on my to-do list which was to seal the granite counters in our kitchen. I have been procrastinating and for some reason today was the day that this long neglected chore would be accomplished.
Only my brilliant plan hit upon a slight snag -- all my supplies were stored in the attic -- and no way was I going up into the dark, dank attic if I can get Jeff to do that for me! So, since the boy likes to laze in bed until at least 11 a.m. and I had 4 hours in between, I took myself off to heat up the rice porridge I've been consuming for the last 2 days and set myself to read the remainder of the morning.
Towards 11 a.m. there was a buzz of a police helicopter outside our complex. Very loudly, they started broadcasting "...male, about 6 ft, 150lbs, ...call 911..." This is not an uncommon thing in my neck of the woods. Since moving to this area, the boy and I have witnessed several of these police helicopter search above our heads at all hours. In this case, there was an armed robbery and the police was searching for the criminal. I took the precaution of securing all our doors and shooed the cats into the bedroom where I immediately jumped underneath the covers and asked Jeff to protect all of us. And he mumbled, "...I'm tired, I'm going back to sleep..."
Being the only one awake and capable of defending our home, I immediately turned on the TV to catch the breaking news, but no updates were available. I searched online and some 25 minutes later, found the story just as the helicopters sound disappeared above. I'm not sure if the suspect was caught or not, but there hasn't been any police activity since.
After the helicopters disappeared, I finally had to threaten to pass on my bug to Jeff before he would get up and get my sealing and paint supplies from the attic. I was planning on doing at least 2 coats of the sealant and while waiting in between each coat, I would put a second coat of white paint on the back of our front door. At least that was the plan. I managed to put one coat on the granite before Jeff took off to his meeting and my parents arrived at my doorstep with my grandparents in their wake.
Since Jeff and I announced our engagement, my parents having been showing up at least weekly at our doorstep to give us an update on our wedding preparation. They are doing all the wedding planning. Apparently, Jeff and I will pretty much only need to show up, the rest will hopefully be done without much interference from us.
My dad took off with my grandparents leaving my mom to help me around the condo. I managed to apply a second coat of the sealant on the granite before I needed an afternoon nap. After an hour later, I woke up and my mom had already cooked us a couple of dishes for dinner, sorted/folded my laundry including the socks, threw out the trash we had laying around in various trash cans, and cleaned and wiped down my counters. I feel grateful, but also as if I'm back in grade school at the same time.
The painting will need to wait until next week...
Here are some pictures:
* The kitchen with the new stainless steel refrigerator -- the 1st frig I've ever bought. It is a beauty, I just hope it will hold up. When I clean it out (yeah, b/c I live with men and they don't clean), I'll showcase it then!
* My attempts once again to commune with nature (in a limited sense). The bamboo stalks are aliiiive once again! I nearly killed them last year -- which just goes to show you how destructive I can be.
* I've created a "Cats' Corner" for our feline friends. It's a work in progress.
* Here's the division between the living room and the dining room.
* The living room in it's naked wall glory. I will get around to finishing up the walls one of these days.
* The back of the front door needs a 2nd coat of white paint (I've been telling myself this for weeks now.)
* The very clean bathroom (of course, you can't see the cluttered counters from this angle!)
Sunday, 04 January 2009
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The thing to do when you're sick of being sick is . . .
Start cleaning like crazy! For the last 2 days, I have spent almost every waking minute cleaning. I feel quite possessed.
I have cleaned the apartment to the point that my hands have become dry and chapped beyond extreme from all the washing up I've done (I'm absolutely, positively OCD about handwashing). I've vacuumed, done laundry around the clock -- couch covers, linens and bedding, and clothing galore, sanitized everything with bleach solution, and discarded rather heartlessly what's no longer useful.
The dumpster in the complex has seen more than our share of trash this week.
I even managed to redecorate with a few items from Ikea.

After paying off my credit card bills, I could only afford 3 stalks of lucky bamboo. Even then, it was still a stretch for my budget! And as far as I know, only the lucky bamboo and cactus plants have survived living with me.
The candles I won from a raffle a few years back, but the black tray and pebbles are all recent purchases. Amid all the cleaning, I didn't have time to gather my own pebbles!
Jeff & I have too many clothes and not enough drawer space, considering that he only gave me one drawer for my items.
My newly organized closet -- with newly purchased hangers.

The living room before...
The living room after
The kitchen after. The cabinets have been scrubbed clean (I never realized how tough it is to remove some of the stains on cabinets)
My partner in all of this -- obviously, she's managment and I'm labor.
Jeff's gift awaiting his return -- it may not look much, but it cost me more than a pretty penny!
Tuesday, 07 October 2008
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He pops the question, but...
The title of this entry says it all, but I'll tell the story in the sequence that I experienced it.
Upon waking up on a Saturday morning, I found myself once again crawling in between the covers of an Agatha Christie's (who shall be referred to as AC from this point on) book. It was a compilation of her short stories and being an obsessed reader I, of course, could not put the book down or devote more than a cursory interest in anything else beyond my field of vision. The interesting thing about this short story collection is that the first four short stories is about romance and engagements combined with her usual elements of mystery/detection... So, it appears that my particular choice of book was quite aligned with the theme of my weekend...albeit, this was all unknown to me at the time.
The attraction of AC was so great that I woke up around 7 am so that I would not squander a moment of my weekend sleeping, but could instead devote myself to the pleasure of fiction. And so, I fried up two eggs for breakfast and settled myself to enjoy both eggs and AC peacefully on Jeff's puky-green couch. And there I remained until Jeff woke up around 10 am. We reheated and ate some left-over fried chicken and went into our separate worlds: I, into AC land, and he, buried in the news found in the WSJ. After an hour, I began to feel guilty at ignoring Jeff. I always feel that the only time we get to spend any quality time together is the weekend because the work days hold so many other commitments. So, even though I was slightly tortured at the thought of parting with AC even momentarily, I felt that self-sacrifice was called for at that moment and suggested that we endeavored to plan a staycation for the remainder of the day.
An hour later, Jeff and I were cruising down I-8 looking for the Sunset Cliffs exit to Ocean Beach (OB). It only took five minutes after we got off the onramp until we felt our tennis shoes sinking into OB's sand. The day was slightly cloudy so there were much fewer sun worshipers than usual. To me, the temperature was perfect -- not too hot or cold -- and the sea breeze was uplifting. Jeff and I wandered along the water and down the length of the pier, stopping to check out the cafe situated on the pier but deciding not to partake in any of the choices offered. While walking the pier, I was eying the fish buckets of various fishermans. The only man who caught my interest was wearing brown camouflage military fatigues. He had a weathered face, resembling worn leather. It appears he is the only good fisherman on the pier because while others had no fish in their bucket, his bucket was completely fun of fish.
We made our way to Newport Ave, the mainstreet of OB's shopping district, and looked through window fronts and popped into a pet store to look at adorable kittens on sale. I fantasized about bringing one home, but the time/energy of trying to get three cats of different ages to get along is a little beyond my ability.
As we strolled along Newport Ave, we checked out the dining establishments for a late lunch. Jeff had a few places he wanted to try courtesy of Yelp. After taking an inventory of our choices, we chose to go with Newport Pizza and Ale House. The atmosphere was laid-back, as befitting of OB's rather hippy-ish vibe. And the menu was simplicity itself -- great beers and pizzas. Their motto is a study in subtlety -- No Crap on Tap. Jeff ordered The Hulk (a green cocoction that tastes better than it looks) and the David Hasselhoff pizza slices. We washed it down with a Victory Pilsner -- their beer special for $3.50. I believe that Jeff & I had more fun at this venue than we did at the much more upscale Serious Pie pizza/beer venue that we tried while vacationing in Seattle. And with seriously fewer dollars out of pocket. This place is definitely worth another visit in the near future.
After eating and drinking our fill, we walked the neighborhood around Newport Ave and meandered back to our car. I fell asleep on the lazy drive home, took a shower, read some more AC, and crawled into bed for a nap at 5:30 pm. I promptly felled asleep, lulled by the food, beer, good companionship, and the unexpected fun I had had. Unfortunately, my nap lasted until 7 am the next morning, and as a result, I completely ruined our plan for a nice romantic dinner.
When Sunday evening rolled around, Jeff made us some noodle soup and a chinese dish of Tofu and veggies. We decided to go out for dessert at another restaurant recommended on yelp. And while the setting was not as grand as I had imagined of a place where the Chef used to work for the Ritz-Carlton I found myself enjoying the spontaniety of the evening. After the Budino (chocolate on the bottom, covered with egg custard, topped with whipped cream/chocolate shavings/strawberries), Jeff popped the question. He said something to the effect of "Lan, would you make me the happiest man on earth by marrying me?" And my reply was, "You're finally asking me to marry you now?"
I told him I was not going to give my answer until he got on his knees. We agreed that he would do that when we got home (he's not into public displays). Unfortunately, when we got home, Jeff was feeling sick to his stomach. He claims that he may have eaten something that disagreed with him and promptly ran to the toilet. I heard him make retching noises. The rest of the evening, we curled up on the couch, where he blended in with the sickly green colored of his couch. I did my best to comfort him.
But he never got around to getting on his knees, and so, I am still waiting for a proposal...
Monday, 29 September 2008
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Ain't life funny -- the employment process
Three weeks ago, I was down in the dumps. New graduate with zero job prospects -- you get the picture, right?
Then, 2 weeks ago, I was offered a job in NM, which I turned down after much deliberation and over many heart-wrenching moments agonizing over whether or not it was the right decision and a pessimistic outlook of whether I would get another offer from a hospital.
My next interview after that was a total failure and my mood became even more abysmal. They told me that I was doing the wrong thing with my career if they selected me for the position. I know they meant to be kind, but in this case, they could have been just a tad more considerate of an unemployed individual.
Anyway, after that, I felt so low that I actually applied at a nursing home -- something that I have almost no experience in and a job I almost had no desire to do. And I was offered the job the same day but I told them I had other interviews scheduled.
Then came the most depressing part of the job search. I went to an open house interview for my top choice. It was crowded with a bunch of new grads in the same position as I was. We were all bright-eyed and a little tense because our newly minted license wasn't too impressive since everyone of the 65 of us present was carrying it. The interview process turned out not really to be an interview. It was an informational meeting re: the positions that would potentially be available. Well, needless to say, I felt that I had just wasted my time and I felt that I was a long shot from ever working in a hospital setting. However, I did my darnest to speak to the hiring manager as he was about to slip out to the parking lot after the open house event. I stopped him for about 1 minute, letting him know that I had trained in his unit and that I was interested in a new grad position. He asked for my resume and said I should call him to schedule an in person interview. At that encouragement, my hopes were renewed slightly. I made that call the next day. They called me back re: an appointment. I went to that appointment although I did make the mistake of going to the wrong location! That was how nervous I was! After the paperwork application, I had to wait an hour after my interview time before the manager escorted me to the interview room. I was nervous the entire time. But strangely enough, he was so mellow, so low-key that it made me mellow just being there -- that's the first time I've felt that way during an interview. So, overall, even though I had expected the worst -- it actually was probably my best interview. And I walked away feeling like I didn't have much to regret in what I said -- only perhaps I could have said more maybe to illustrate my good qualities. But maybe it was a good thing I didn't say too much because...wait for it...I got the JOB! And there are no words right now to tell you how incredible this feels.
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